I cant stand the way sometimes I try so hard at school and yet fail with such finality. I also cant stand that I’m not a “naturally” smart person. I’m not really “naturally” anything (perhaps a natural bitch?) – I’m not naturally smart – naturally musically gifted – naturally athletic. Why do the people who never try get everything so great? Everything I have, I have worked for.

I worked for my life the way it is now, and I’m proud of what I have. I like my nails that change almost every day, the way I can entertain myself over the smallest things and the way I generally find it easy to have a conversation that doesnt revolve around bright colours and trends.

Nail polish remover has nothing to do with this post – its just what was closest to me at the time – along with a stapler, scissors, a bandaid, a Transflash card, a stack of CD’s and a Shakespeare’s Tradegies book. None of which really had the same ring.