The other day I was in the car – driving on some road to get to some place – listening to 104.1 when “put your hands up for Detroit” came on. I was staring out the window thinking about how stressed I am and how I couldn’t wait for exams to be over. 5 seconds into my self absorbed thoughts the car passed a pole, covered in flowers, with a cross underneath bearing the name “Joey.”
Everything I had been thinking of disappeared, I looked at mum but she hadn’t even seen the cross, or at least showed no signs of recognition. I stopped thinking about me – and, in my own way, wished that Joey would now have an easier life, and begged that his or her family be helped through this time. I don’t know why. It’s not exactly like me to pray – having no defined beliefs. I guess I just saw this perfectly positioned cross with the letters in so perfectly aligned and the flowers so perfectly alive and wondered how everything could be so perfect. It reminded me of my granddad.
This morning, too tired to bother caring about the 2 ½ hour paper I would be doing in less than an hour, I sat on the bus, listening to my ipod, and stared aimlessly out the window. I kept the one song on repeat the entire 30 minute trip.I began to watch the people hurrying through the station; students, business people, teachers. Each and every single person ignorant to whoever passed. In the 2-3 minutes the bus was stopped I saw at least 10 people run into another person – without acknowledgment or even a sorry.
Imagine that every single person is somehow, in the tiniest way, similar to you. Yet this person isn’t even good enough to acknowledge.
Still listening to the same song, I have this way of making film clips in my head, their usually simplistic with happy endings, but for the short time there exists a perfect world in my head – where the ending is always happy.

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April 23, 2007 at 9:04 am
surplusvalue
Wow, a lot of thought went into this post. Quite observant, moving and reflective.
You noticed what does, and does not matter. How we and our relationships with other people matter.
“Imagine that every single person is somehow, in the tiniest way, similar to you.” I think that that is an excellent principle, and one we should also relate to non-human animals.
“but for the short time there exists a perfect world in my head – where the ending is always happy” – the most positive thing I have ever heard you say.
I’m glad I suggested you blog.
April 23, 2007 at 9:10 am
sargehh
Did you watch the video? Im sensing that happy music makes me thoughtful – whereas outbreak and the like make me angry. Good range at least.
Random people can make me so happy, any tiny gesture of decencey…
yet they can also bring me rightttt down if they do something disgusting that has absolutley no self respect.
WordPress makes me smile… do you ever notice that tiny smiley face at the bottom of the screen. Sometimes it moves around.
Its like a tiny tiny tiny reminder. I like it.
April 23, 2007 at 12:56 pm
surplusvalue
Yeah, I watched it. I agree with the music range sentiments. Pity I love punk/hardcore so much; even the positive varieties still sound angry. Although, there a few bands that are not punk/hardcore and consequently more happy.
Such is life – the smallest can mean the most, whether it brings happiness or anger.
WordPress makes me smile, laugh and everthing else. It’s strange how much more can be said in written rather than spoken words. Or maybe that is just me. Either way, everyone should go get a blog – it is surprisingly enjoyable.
What smiley face? I probably noticed it, I just don’t know where you are referring to. It moves around?
April 23, 2007 at 2:39 pm
Radmore
Very thoughfull indeed.
Sometimes I try the observant, psycho-analysing of human behaviour. It always seems to send up the same though. Mainly because its usually the dickheads who come out on top.
I would get a blog. However, my thoughts change rapidly, one day I could be sensitive and kind.., the next cold and shallow. Plus, I dont feel many emotions, and I dont show those I do. Writing them down would only complicate things.
I noticed the little smiley face, it was fair cool…
April 23, 2007 at 11:36 pm
sargehh
Bahahahaha i agree – get a blog – although you may think you have nothing to say – im sure you will get through with rants and such. Its very easy. And amusing.
Its like a tiny black and white smiley… when your writing a reply… scroll to the bottom of the page and just scan around. The bottom. The sides. It movessss sometimes.
Radmore look at my posts; they go from psycho angry, to analytical (in some dumbed down form) then too thoughtful and observant.
Get a blog – if you have enough time to write – you will enjoy it.
The smiley is awesome
Mason i cant believe you havent seen it!
April 24, 2007 at 1:34 am
surplusvalue
Oh, I thought you meant some large smiley or something… I see it – it’s like really small. I usually don’t scroll down that far.
Agreed – Radmore, write a blog.
April 24, 2007 at 6:50 am
sargehh
its TINYYYY… HOW CUTE IS IT. it makes me giggle.
April 24, 2007 at 8:28 am
surplusvalue
*giggles*
April 24, 2007 at 10:29 am
sargehh
* giggles uncontrolably*
April 25, 2007 at 6:07 am
surplusvalue
*death by giggling*. *Dies*.
April 25, 2007 at 6:15 am
sargehh
BAHAHAHAHA touche’ death by studying maskiessss lolll
oh man.. i went into our msn history
and went “find” “middle name”
and it wasnt freaking THERE
this is going to be harder than i thought…
just tell me the first letter to jog my memory?
*gets in knees*
pleaseee i BEG of you.
April 25, 2007 at 7:18 am
surplusvalue
M.
You could just come on MSN.
April 27, 2007 at 1:07 am
poosey[glynn]
Poose. You are too thoughtful. Stop being thoughtful. It makes the rest of us look bad for not being so thoughtful. Bio exam sucked ass. Agreed? You better! Love
April 27, 2007 at 1:40 am
sargehh
I agree on the bio exam. WTF is homeostasis… or something i cant even remember and hence not even attempt to pronounce.
bahahaha there was a time when you called me a heartless bitch poose.
it was like…” cold… heartless *everyone stops talking* BITCHHHHHH”
couldnt have echoed more if it were in some sort of a canyon instead of our favourite spot at school
*sighhh good memories*
April 27, 2007 at 2:17 am
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April 27, 2007 at 5:45 am
surplusvalue
Cold, heartless, bitch? …Not very nice, and that is a good memory why? Your bad memories must be really bad then.
April 27, 2007 at 5:52 am
sargehh
BAHAHAHAHA i just remember it… and yes my bad memorys are really bad.
its a good memory… coz its poose. and i love poose.
There was also a time when only her and jesi said poose…
and i tried to be included and go “yeah poose”
and they both looked at me and just went “… no sarah”
babababa but now im included and no1 else is
MUAHAHAHAHA
April 27, 2007 at 6:46 am
surplusvalue
Stop kidding yourself. NO SARAH.
April 27, 2007 at 6:47 am
surplusvalue
Or, NO SARAH.
April 27, 2007 at 7:10 am
sargehh
HAHAHAHAHA bit me mr “rarararara” you CRAVEEE to be in MY personal jokes.
April 27, 2007 at 9:06 am
surplusvalue
L1.
You still on about that? For the zillionth time: that was a mockery, not some craving. A piss-take. Looking at our msn history we probably have enough of our own anyway.
April 28, 2007 at 6:35 am
sargehh
bahahahaha *rarararara* no you SAY its a mockery… i know otherwise
June 9, 2007 at 6:26 am
zetrindade
About the smiley, if it is appearing in unconvenient places, you can insert the following code into your wordpress “style.css” file:
img#wpstats{width:0px;height:0px;padding:0px;border:none;overflow:hidden}
Otherwise keep giggling.
and giggling….
July 27, 2007 at 5:04 pm
Melanie Steffan
This is an important message, please read and pass it along. God has made contact. The message is about Revelation. The message is from God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost respectively. It was sent in the Spring of 2006. It is about the meaning of First is Last and Last is First. The message is this: In the morning I go to Heaven. In the afternoon I live my life. In the evening I die, death. What does this mean? In other words this means Birth is Last and Last is Birth. To understand this don’t think from point A to point B. Think of this as a continous circle of life. Birth is First, Life, Death, Birth is Last, completing the circle. God also said that Judgment will be before Birth in Heaven. As birth on Earth is painful so will birth in Heaven. It is possible that this message was delivered by one of God’s Angels in the Spring of 2006. Yes, God has made contact and he sent a messenger. Spread this message along, just like a chain letter. Tell two people. OH, one more thing I thought was interesting. Did you know that Mike Douglas died on his birthday. Melanie Staffan
July 28, 2007 at 10:24 am
Buttons.
Holy fuck. Go away.